i curl up into a ball in order to be safe. safe from the wars i been wagen on myself on my family and on my enimies. fightin every day just to stay alive just to keep kicken and scratching my way though this thing called life. i face you every moment in my dreams in my reality, because its allways about you. the way i act the way i am its because of you. this war you been wagen on yourself you cant win. you got no place to go but down noplace to hide noplace to run. i can hold your hand till the break of a new day but it wont change a thing. you wont be going noplace. its the end of yourtime and the start of mine. thing is i keep hiding away from it. away from the chance that i might miss you to much. your not letting go because i am not ready. i cant do what you did. i cant hold it together like you did. what do you want from me. just 19 huh well thoese years they turning fast. those steps they big. i may not know what i want but i know what i have to do. i got to stand up off this and act. my loooove loooove loooove. its why i hate. i love so much that what i hate things that hurt my love. its because of love that keep me hiding from what i love. keep me curled up becuase i am afraid of loosing what i love. this world of love and hate really brings me to this place of fear.