timeframe??

When i hear about those who are told, your loved one only have X amount of time left, i wonder why thats not me. Nonna has got no standard of life left- she sleeps almost all day, she only wakes up to have a fit at me or one of the nurses. There is no getting better, there are no good days left for her. She has been fighting this for at least 7 years now when will her time come??

I dont know how i will deal with this if things are the same when i have to go back to school. Can I really just go back like everything is ok, because things wont be ok with me here- nobody will visit her. I told myself at the end of the school just to go home and spend time with her now because the end is near, but what if it is not near at all?? and i cant even say this stuff with out wanting to burst into tears.