I wonder why when you cry so much your noise gets so stuffy. I cant breath out of it right now. I thought to much about everything. About my life as a punching bag. I mean that in a few ways. Its not like I am blaming others, I feel as if most of how I get treated is my fault. I dont have a good self esteem. Mostly thinking about this all brought me back to one point. Like it always does.
I miss her so god dam much. Even when she had no idea who I was, she knew she loved me. Now I have people in my life who can call me by my name but cant tell me they love me. I would rather it be the other way around. I miss her. I miss her. I miss her. I miss her. I miss her.
The last time I hurd her voice it was over the phone. She had a few broken bones in her face plus she was wearing an oxygen mask. But she still managed to say it. She still said it. even if she had no idea who I was, or how much that really meant to me. She said it, just like this. "I love you... I love you...I love you"
Tuesday, April 22, 2008
"I love you"
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I don't know your family, Stef, but I do know that sometimes people forget to say I love you. It doesn't mean they don't love you though. In my family, we often forget. But we love each other tons.
Just a thought...
Hang in there, sweetie. You are loved.
Stef,
I can relate..know that I love you..
Sweetie, don't listen for the words, look for the actions. Love has little to do with what you say but has more to do with how you are treated. Just my opinion.
just wanted you to know that i love you. (((hugs)))
we love you stef.
Is there anyway I can contact you?? As in an email address? We both seem to have so much in common...
My grandmother has alzheimers too... I'd really like a friend to confide in. No one else gets what I'm going through. It's been so hard. :( It's hard to stay strong when you see the person you grew up with not even remember who you are.
Your page brought tears to my eyes. Everything about your grandmother reminded me of my own...
My grandmother, 84, is in the 6th stage of alzheimers. She's getting worse and worse each day.
And I, 14, am terrified.
-Lindsey
P.S. My email is linzylou93@yahoo.com
(you don't have to email me, I'd just like to talk to someone privately that knows what I'm going through.)
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