so little sleep

i am running on so little sleep. how come even with that, i still cant sleep. sometimes i can get so upset, over not even anything. bring myself into a state of pure panic in a matter of moments. and all of this only make me dislike myself more, which then makes the problem worse. its a sick cycle, but one i am just not strong enough to break. i am sorry i am this way. i wish i was a different person.