Funk

I have been in some kind of bad place lately. Anti-social is easy around here. Not many people around so I just lock myself in my room. I have enough homework to keep my busy. I am really good at just shutting people out. Even you all. I have been having this short recurring dream lately. That people are calling my name and then someone grabs my arm tightly. Thats it. Weird I know. As I told Dave this morning that last night my dream changed. It was something silly with someone putting makeup on me. As I told him I remembered I had another one last night. I dreamt I got to see my Aunt Julie. I have never had a dream about her, and it has been so long since I have seen her that in my dream I was not sure if it was her. But when she laughed I knew it was. I helped her walk over to a chair and she told me It was going to be ok. I was so happy to see her I did not think much of that line then. Now I am realizing it means so much more.

I don't think I feel much better... but at least I have got the feeling back that its going to be ok.

Also I am going to discontinue comments on my blog for a bit. I would just rather nobody feel like they have to comment. It will come back don't worry, and until then most of you have my email address. I'll be OK. My aunt told me.