Sickness

I feel life I have been sick. Still am. Its not a cold, or the flu. Its something harder to explane. Sitting in my room alone most every day this week for hours and hours at a time. It has rotted out my soul. Not sleeping well eaither. I am trying to get better but its not as easy as one would think. I spent almost 2 hours today doing nothing but resting, taking a long shower and covering my body in lotion. I thought it would help. I lit a candle to see if the smell could heal me. To clean out my inside i got a really tall glass of water and I am just drinking it down. No soda for me today. Maybe this all is helping a bit but I still feel in a hole so dark that this candle is hardly glowing. I have a big scary midterm on Monday, I think I really need that to be over. I just have to keep holding on... keep moving forward... I am trying...