it hurts to feel so alone. i know i have friends out there. here in town, and all over the country. its just is not the same. when i put my head down and cry i find myself wishing there was someone to put there hand on my back. but if i turn around i quickly remember there is nobody there. i never felt so alone in my life. every breath i take hurts just a little more. should i go home to find some help? or will it only hurt more to see and remember "she is not there."
Thursday, January 24, 2008
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Nothing is ever the same after we lose a loved one. Somehow, we find a reason to keep on keepin on, a day at a time. Some days that comes easy and some days that is a hard task to undertake.
If you can find the support you need, I would say to go home on the weekends and get it. For me, it helps me to not be around people, places and things which remind me of my folks. Everyone has their own comfort level. I hope you can find that level and cling to it. Hugs little one.
i am so glad you allowed comments. i don't have your e-mail address (which is ok) but i felt so helpless. even though it is very hard right now, everything you are feeling is normal and someone out there has experienced it as well. as chris said, every one has their own comfort level and way for dealing with things.
after russ died, mark had a really hard time. he ended up going to student health services and talking to someone there. he said it helped because they were non-judgmental and mainly just listened to him. have you considered something like that?
i am here for you. if there's anything i can do, let me know. many ((((((hugs)))))) my friend.
Whatever you are feeling is OK, Stef. There are no rules or guidelines for grief. I think that's the hardest part for me. If there were a set of procedures to follow to get through, it would really help.
You need to decide for yourself about getting help. But I like Nancy's suggestion about Student Health Services at school. If I were you, I'd give that a try.
Hang tough, Stef. Nonna would want you to continue on and make the most of your life. That's just how good Grandma's are - they want the very best for their grand-babies. And I know she was a great grandmother. So whatever you have to do to begin taking steps toward the best life you can have, go for it.
We're here for you to have a soft place to land. ((hugs)) sweetie.
Stef,
I wish that I had something wise to say..but I don't. When I lost my grandmother I thought that someone had shook me by my ankles upside down. But I know that she would want to me continue on my life. Thurdays are still hard for me...
I agree with Chris and Nancy...maybe there is someone in Student Health Services that can help you. Take care and remember that you are in my thoughts and prayers....much love and (((hugs)) little buddy
It is so easy to feel alone when no one is around to hold your hand or pat your back, but we are here, just a bit further out.
You are loved.
Just checking in on you, Stef, and letting you know I am thinking about you. Gentle ((hugs)) are coming your way.
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