how can i care about it all?

-Photo class and how i cant seem to manage to get an A in 6 quarters of taking the same class
-Nature photo class and how i "disappointing" the teacher with my lack of enthusiasm
-How i am getting a low B in a math class that i should be able to pass in my sleep, but i cant seem to focus on or do any of the work
-My brother and fathers certain lack of disregard for the fact that MY GRANDMOTHER IS IN A NURSING HOME.
-My grandmother and her last few months on this earth
-My mom and her ATTACHMENT TO ME and PURE INSANITY her phone calls crying her anger at my family and her anger at the Nursing Home.
-My friends and there upcoming birthdays, which i don’t see how i can attend anymore

-Me? and what i want to do with my life?