I realized I havent posted in a whille

I just wanted to update because i guess i havent in a while. I guess this end of the school year is not so bad. Its just another change. Change is hard, but if its posable i may have gotten used to things being diffrent every day. I am afraid of going home, but sometimes i feel like it might be ok. It helps to think of the future, and it helps to think of the past.

Nonna's not receaving the bi-pap at night anymore, she has become violent and they wont put it on her anymore. My mom has resigned herself to that, but its hard because this cuts down on her remaning time. She gets so sleepy all the time. I hope one day she just falls asleep when she is sitting around all of us and never wakes up. It sounds horable, but i think she would like to leave us in that peacefull way. But life is hardly ever peacefull.