where am I?

I thought i would be home now. I thought I would be home when this happened. She had to go back to the hospital. Does that mean its now? Is it going to be over now? Or is this going to be like the last time, just another "wait." My mom told me to stay where I am. I wish I could be there for her but I am so afraid. My mother always used to know what to do. She was always right, but what if this time she is not right and I should be there for them all. I dont understand, should it be this hard? I want to know for sure. I want to know if this is the time, if today she will leave me forever. I want to know, but I dont. Do I just sit here working on homework like everthing is ok? Or do I run home miss class even though she could be fine tomorrow. I wish someone could tell me. I just want to know.