2am... yeah...

I have not been this hyper at 2am for a long time. If I posted on your blog and sounded a bit crazy well sorry... lol. I don't know what wrong with me at the moment. It seems as if I have energy or something. Its not a good kind of energy either. Its the restless kind. I put my hand on my chest and feel the beat of my heart move way to fast. I don't remember the last time I felt like this. And boy at 2am??? Once I took a no-doze pill (caffeine) and drank 3 bottles of soda I felt kinda like this... why must you torture me body???

If it was not so wet outside I would go for a walk or something. Instead I went down and visited my dog who has been sound asleep for 4 hours now... she didn't like being woken but hey she does it to me...

If I had to make a guess as to why this is happening I would say that I am nervous about seeing Nonna tomorrow and about the rest of the weekend with my family. Tonight did not go exactly like I was hoping. Not that I had high expectations. Playing the "lets pick a new topic now" game is better then the "lets kill each other with our dinner knives" game. Nobody goes to jail if we change the topic! Oh and you know when the dinner was not a totally bust when my dad only has 2 glasses of wine, whoot. His conversation on the way home was only slightly offensive.

Speaking of which you might want to know that I am the black sheep of my family. You maybe already could tell. Just because I am so hyper I thought now would be a good time to make sure you knew. They don't tend to like me... I don't tend to get along with them... BOY I love being in my old room again... so many memories. Maybe sarcasm not so good at 2am now 2:30am. So for your information Nonna is/was the main reason I stick around my family still to this day. Whats going to happen to that when she is gone. No lets not think about that now... to hyper... to hyper...

my foot is asleep maybe its time to go visit my doggies again, i don't think she will be happy to see me. to bad she cant talk, then she would tell me go to sleep gosh darn it.

I am just simply hilarious when I am hyper at 2am....