i think to much

I know and have known for some time that I think to much. Nobody in my family thinks about things like I do. I could tell I was different from the start. Its not something I am happy about really. People can say all they want how its good to be different. I just wanted to fit in with my family. Once I realized though that that would never happen well I guess I became my own person. I might think to much but at least I know who I am, and who I am not. I am not my brother thats for sure. I am also not my father. I am also not my Nonna. I never know what to do. She always knew what to do. We all live different lives. So how can we be the same person?

I guess the point to all of this is I should stop worrying about being someone else. I should do things to better myself but not because of other people. I know I think to much but I don't want to change that really. I mean maybe cut down a bit just to be happier yes, but I don't want to change myself.

I should be my own person. I need to try to be more decisive. I need to have a stronger back bone. I need to not be afraid to jump a little. I guess thats all for today.


I just want to be me. But better.