All day I couldent stop playing over that stupid dream. (see below) Its driving me mad. I thought about my cousin. About how I wish I could remember him better. He was only 22 when he died. Surfing accident while in the Army. Who was that woman and child? Was it his wife and kid? Is it possible to have a wife and kid if your dead? My mom's response on the phone... "it should have been me" I don't know what she means. The letters of Nonna's name, I found myself doodling them in my notebook when I was supposed to be paying attention. Also why was I just so angry? Will I be that angry when it really happens? Will I burn bridges like I burned the whole building? Will my family not even survive once my grandmother is gone?
questions all day, no work done
Monday, September 10, 2007
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OK, I'm going to take a shot at this. Your cousin will be the one to take nonna home. The woman and child could have been someone she knew when she was younger. Your mom was supposed to be the one that found her, not you. And yes you will be angry, it is part of the grieving process.
be gentle with yourself stef. i wish i knew what your dream meant or what to say to you to ease your mind. i like lori's interpretation though. hugs to you.
I like Lori's interpretation, too. Dreams fascinate me and I use to have a book that gave meaning to the symbols. Wish I knew what happened to that book.
Interesting Nancy - since my dad died I rarely can remember my dreams, too.
I like what Lori said.
I think probably the woman and child represent a future that might have been and isn't because of his early death. In your subconscious you recognize that your own future will be changed by your Nonna's death.
Likewise you do recognize that you will be angry and you will feel like burning bridges. It doesn't mean you will do that at all.
Your family will survive but it will be very different. You worry about it.
I think in some ways you are just dealing with things you fear in this dream. It seems to me it is a way of preparing yourself, considering things, playing things out.
I had to look up "Angela Capasso."
Angela Capasso is Nonna's name
thank you all for your advice and reason.
She's also a little baby who died in 2005. There's a website:
http://angelacapasso.memory-of.com/
Stef,
My heart goes out to you. You remind me so much of my daughter. I wish you peace and like Nancy said, be gentle with yourself. You have an amazing heart.
That is really weird flinty...
Hi chris.. Have we talked before? I know a few chirs's from the forum...
Stef,
I agree with Lori. There are 5 steps that we must all go through when we lose a loved one and anger is one of them. Stef, please be kind to yourself and know that we are here for you.(((((((((hugs)))))))
Gale
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