My father dropped in today. Have not even spoken with him for a while now. He was looking at a car in the area I guess. What made him choose to visit me I don't know. I was actually feeling good before that. 2 guesses on how I felt when he showed up though. I don't think anyone needs the second guess. He took me and my friend to lunch I guess if thats what you could call it. I never felt so sick so I did not eat a thing. (by the way I weighed myself today and found out I lost 4 pounds... yeah i needed to loose that but not by starvation) Anyways my mom called while he was here. She was clueless. She was upset. I was in the middle again. She picked up Nonna and brought her home today. She said it was just terrible. I wish I could have been there. I also wonder if it was quite as bad as my mom described it. Hard to tell when she is already upset. I sent my dad home only a few hours after he arrived with the most accord hug ever. I really could have done with out this added confusion right now.
god, i feel like i hate my family please let it not be true.
by the way i am sorry i am not a better friend.
Saturday, September 8, 2007
unexpected visitor
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I'm sorry it did not go well with your dad. You are stressed and sick and just probably didn't want to be bothered with anybody elses stuff. That doesn't mean you hate your family. Sometimes you just want everybody to leave you alone. I didn't like my family being around when I was your age either. I somehow felt that I couldn't be myself around them but had to put on some facade of the good little daughter.
Now what's this junk about not being a good friend? That is not my experience with you. When I am down, you always post and are right by my side.
Don't be so hard on yourself friend.
HAng in there, Stef. {{{{{hugs}}}}}
i agree with lori, flinty and betsy!! they all said it so well.
please take care of yourself. we love and care about you.
Stef,
Sometimes in life we have to put distance between ourself and other family members. It does not mean that you hate them, it is just that you need time for you. So don't be so hard on yourself. We love you and care about you...so hang in there...we are here for ya.
Gale
you guys mean so much to me. thank you for putting up with me.
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