OK I might be freaking out just a little. I am not ready to go back to school. I am not ready to move into my first apartment. I am not ready to not call this house my home. I have lived here my whole life and well I might never again. My heart is beating really fast, I have way to many things to remember, and I just cant stop thinking how much I will miss her. The idea of failure keeps running though my head as well. I mean I didn't do so well last quarter in my classes, what if I fail again? What if I just cant do it anymore? What if I wont be able to stand being away? Or maybe I will like it to much and wont want to go back to visit.
I feel like I am jumping off a cliff with my eyes closed and nobody to hold my hand. What would she say to me to make me feel better?
OH and adding this: WOW its been 100 posts to this blog. I never thought I would take to blogging like this. Its amazing. So thank you for reading. It does mean so much to me to share with you all. I hope for there to be another 100 posts...
Thursday, August 16, 2007
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3 comments:
stef,
take a deep breath in and exhale slowly, take another deep breath in and exhale slowly, take one more deep breath in and exhale slowly....
you will be fine and you will succeed. nonna would tell you to go and get an education, follow your dreams and have fun along the way.
we will all continue to be here to support you and be with you every step of the way. you are stronger than you think!
hey, that's great 100 posts. does that make me 101? congrats and keep on blogging!
I agree so much with nancy. Your nonna wants the best for you and you know what she would tell you. It is normal to be anxious over anything new. But you've done enough to know that you'll be fine. You're cool.
I agree that nonna would want you to go back to school. Don't dwell on whether you will pass or not. Just do your best and let God do the rest. You will be guided in the direction you are supposed to go. Think of all that nonna wanted for you. Staying home waiting for God to take her is not what she would have wanted. Follow your dreams and make her proud. We will always be here for you when things get rough.
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