I consider you friends. I consider our conversations important. I consider our connection to be strong. But I wonder if its the same to you.
You have had lives. You have had loves. You have experienced so much pain, loss, and anguish. You have known what its like to wake up every day and know its exactly like the last. Exactly the same except completely different.
I spend my days thinking to much. I spend my days wondering if the choices I have made are the right ones. I spend my days hoping that someone else makes my decisions for me. I hope that life walks its path and decides to take me along.
Then after I have thought about it all. About the reasons. About the whys. About the hows. About the whos. I look back and say what was the point of that. What was the point in this discussion. What is the point in these questions that I am still asking. I don't even know what I am saying. So I ask you, do you know what I am saying? Or have I just lost my mind?
Wednesday, August 22, 2007
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4 comments:
Stef, life has fun, joy, and wonderful excitement, too. The least joy is more than all the pain and sadness combined.
I am a caregiver for my parents and it has been and is challenging. But it has been wonderfully rewarding and fulfilling, too. I would do it again in a moment with no hesitation.
Divorce was hard but being a father and a husband more than made up for it.
Remember the play "Our Town" and how Emily gets to come back and relive a day? And she talks about how it is too wonderful.
That's the way life is. It is too wonderful.
Don't be distracted friend.
hey you must be online right now...
anyways i don't know about anything, i am much to confused at the moment... thank you though for it all
Yes Stef, I do consider us friends. I know I am much older than you but believe it or not, I do remember being your age. I was so lost then. Making that transition from childhood to adulthood was very difficult for me. I so wanted to go back to being a child where I was safe and taken care of.
Just try to make the best choices for your life and pray a lot. Don't worry if you stumble along the way. I made a lot of really bad choices at your age. Just remember that we are here for you. Love ya sweetie.
stef,
you are at somewhat of a crossroads right now in your life. we all face them. some are easier than others. we just have to pray that we will make the right decisions. sometimes we do and then sometimes we don't. but you can learn from your mistakes as well. we all have.
and yes, i consider you a friend, and an important friend at that.
God bless you!
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