*sigh*

yeah i am back again. I hate the movement of my life right now. Its not the being that it so hard, its the change that is. I don't even get comfortable in my apartment and I have to come home. When i get home my mom is not ok... she is in tears and she is mad at me because well idk i got out for the weekend... I am just so torn between the two worlds. I want to be a normal kid, but I cant. I want to be a good daughter and granddaughter but I cant. I CANT do it all. I am only one single person who is short and round. I don't even know if its ME who is demanding that I become both of these people or if its someone else. Maybe its my fault i feel this way. I cant make myself NOT though. :( I just want to be one person.