alone

The weekend was fun. No human deaths, but my ipod Ralf did die. It was very upsetting for me. I loved that ipod and cant really afford a new one. Anyways if you ever get a chance in your life see Lion King. It is so worth it. It was amazing. The music, the visuals, everything just amazing.

Now that i am home and sitting on my bed again... i find myself worrying. How was she this weekend. Did they forget her, did she cry? How is it this summer is almost over? How come i cant make myself want to go back to school? Whats going to happen to her when i go back and how will i stay focused on school. These things just keep re-playing in my head over and over again like broken record. I can make myself stop for a min but it just comes back when my defenses are down. Then i feel sick to my stomach with worry. My head will start to spin. The distractions of New York worked but it seems i have fallen back into the pits as soon as i got home. and am i alone in this? maybe not but it sure feels like it.