Its been a month. It feels like so long ago and also just yesterday at the same time. It hurts like it was yesterday but it seems so long ago that I was able to see her face. Its been longer then a month since I saw her, even longer yet since I saw her happy. I miss her so much. My mom said she would not send out the Christmas cards until it had been a month. Now that it has does that mean its over? Does it mean I have to really get over this? I have moments where I feel like I can, but they are normally fallowed my moments of shear terror. Not only am I not willing to stop grieving but I am afraid of not grieving. Is just been to much to handle this month, I wish I could spend all day in bed it hurts so much. I feel like crying.
me and my god son
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7 comments:
it doesnt' seem possible it has been a month, i agree. don't expect it to be over stef, it takes much longer. i'm still waiting for when it will get easier for me. (((hugs))))
It has been a month? I am so sorry. My heart breaks for you. Please know that I'm here for you...gentle hugs to you my little buddy....
I'm at a loss for words, Stef. My thoughts are with you.
Be gentle with yourself Stef. It will take time to heal.
Sending you a huge bear hug right now, Stef!
I am certain that your Nonna is looking down at you with such love and pride in her girl! Hold tight to those special "Nonna memories" and you will make it through this!
Thanks for posting your Moon poem on my blog. It is a great poem...one that makes you think!
Stef,
If grief and pain had a shut off valve, I would have found it by now. We all would have. It is so hard to handle death and during the holidays it is even harder. What to do, when, how, and how much? You just take your time with your grief and cry it out when you need to. You loved that wonderful woman and she now lives inside of you. I had the same relationship with my grandma, I was crushed when she died. It gets better but I miss her every day. Maybe my Grandma and Nonna are knitting and crocheting up a storm up there together?
Many hugs little one.....it's ok to cry. I still do 23 years later.
It's hard for me to believe it's been a month for you, Stef. Time marches on and there are those days where I just want to stay in bed, too. I wish there was an easier way - like a magic potion for us to drink so we all wouldn't hurt so much.
Hang tough, Stef. ((hugs))
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