Funeral and Wake over

Today was the funeral. I cried a lot of tears. It seems so imposable that she could really be gone. I find myself thinking about the things she should be doing right now. The things I wish she was doing right now. I find my self wondering about the nursing home. About her room- now empty. It seems pretty stupid to be thinking about this stuff when I just saw her body being lowered into the ground.

There was one good surprise today though. My mom decided last minute to do a Eulogy of sort in the church. She did not tell anyone so when the priest said her name I and the rest of my family was shocked. Not only was that a surprise but her words were as well. She said that we were here to celebrate two things. Her mothers death and her mothers life. She said how much faith Nonna had and how she really almost looked forward to the afterlife because she would join her husband. She then spoke of how caring she was in life. How she never wanted to hurt anyone ever, especially anyone in her family. She talked about her surprises to. How Nonna moved to America when she was just 30, and how she gave up so much to move in with her and her kids(me). She was a great grandmother to both me and my brother while we were growing up. So in the end my mother told me and the rest of church to not be afraid of taking a chance. To live life like she did because she truly had a great life.

I was so proud of my mother today. I realized that when I miss Nonna the most I wont have to go far to find her in my mother. We may have disagreements (a lot) but I am so proud to be her daughter today.