November

I like to start each month thinking about what I expect from it. Will I be happier? Will I fall in love? Make new friends? Met old friends? Trust someone new? Loose someone? Will I cry more? Will I change? Will I stay the same? Will the world change? Will I fall bigger then I ever have? Or will I fly higher then I ever have? There is no way to really tell what this month will bring. I could spend all month guessing and therefor prevent anything at all from happening to me. I may be frightened of change but I might be more frightened of nothing changing. What if the end of this month comes and I am in the exact same place I am right now? I guess then I will have to wait for December.

Nonna update: I have been so sick lately that I have not been paying as much attention as I normally do to Nonna on this blog. She has been moved to the 1st floor of the nursing home now. It sound be better but I worry that it will only confuse her more. She was in a very small way getting used to the people on 3N. If she was not well at least we were. The first night she was moved she fell. She has been in bed since. Her O2 levels are not right. The past 2 days she has been fighting that and not much else. Don't ask me if this is something big or just another bump in the long road ahead for her because I don't know.