Weird

Its weird how things seem to happen a specific way. This morning one of my only good friends called me. She lives in Portland. She was in tears, total tears, I could not understand a word she was saying. So I calmed her down in attempts to figure it out. She then explained that her mom had a heart attack and was in the hospital on a ventilator. Her mom is not much older them mine. Maybe 55 or 57. She has not been in the best of health though. She does not talk to her dad, and her bothers are well less then perfect. I am worried about her. She knew about Nonna, but not that she is almost gone. How do you tell someone that once they already have so much on there mind? She met Nonna more then a few times. I don't know.

Its weird thinking about my future. It weird thinking we no longer have to look for a new nursing home. I feel like there wont be any point left to anything after another week. Like my family will just stop functioning because we wont need to anymore. My family may not be like yours. We don't really get along. Will I stop even going home once I don't have a reason to anymore? Worst part is that I would not even be thinking about this if I was only there instead of stuck here. In hell. Just waiting for my final to be over and my life to totally change. These days could not seem any longer.